I just borrow this book from the state library, found it from the
biography section - the genre I used to read (and own) most. I am not a novel person, but used to read
Chinese classic novel before, and loving it. I guess, this book shall serve both purpose - and an away from the (some people says a boring) -self-help genre I mainly read at all time
I will share interesting snapshots soon ;)
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7/4/2012:
PART ONE
Death of father
I despised the dead man, even though he is my father
and has ruled the Xie Empire for 30 years.
Duanbai - the new Emperor at age of 14
Suddenly I heard the Funerian speak my name, the
gravity of his voice deepening~ Fifth son Duanbai, succeeds to the throne as
Emperor of Xie.
Hostility
The sons of my stepmother stood behind me, and when I
turned to look at them, I was confronted by what seemed to be looks of
hostility. Why were they always looking at me like that?
Enemy
Who wants to see me dead?
~Your enemy
Who is my enemy?
~See for yourselves, whoever is hiding farthest from
you is your enemy
Cricket Jar
The serving girls returned with my darling little
cricket cage. and for many nights after that I fell asleep listening to the
crisp cries of black-winged cricket.
Juekong - Child Mentor
The smile on his face was as serene and beautic as
ever. I watched as he took the copy of The Analects out of his sleeve.
You have
not read these all way through, he said.
Juekong left
His hands shook as he handed me the book. I knew that
the man was about to leave me, and I am powerless to stop him.
Where will you
go? I shouted at this retreating back.
~ To Bitter Bamboo Monastery.
Old Sun Xin - the spell
I knew he is a mad man, others wanted to drive him out
of the palace but I stopped them. For not only I was fond of the man, I was
equally fond of his repeating inauspicious incantation
- The fire is out, and calamity will soon befall the Xie Empire
Emperor's child dream - a Tightrope Walker
"Walking a tightrope is more impressive than
being Emperor of Xie. Now that is a job for a true hero. I was struck by the
vast differences between the tightrope walker and me. I don't want to be
Emperor. I want to be a tightrope walker"
Swallow - Dutiful and obedient servant, buddy and
lifetime friend.
What is your name
~Swallow
How old are you
~12. I was born in the year of the ram
I wanted you to sleep by my bed, then whispered in his
ears: we can be playmates
Kill is power
Is there anyone you want killed Swallow?
~ I don't want anyone to die, then said " Your
majesty, let's go play cat's cradle"
Duanwen and Duanwu - allianced brother
The great general Duanwen reached the city gate
, where he is greeted by an explosion of firecrackers and musical welcome.
Doubtless, this has been arranged by his brother, Duanwu who leaped to the
ground from his carriage, running toward the brother and shouting the whole
way. The sight of them embracing amid loud wails at the city gate had people
sighing tearfully for a very long time. In me it created a profound sense of
loss. Duanwen is not my brother. I had ministers and subjects, but no brothers.
Madame Yang - a stepmother
You are not the rightful emperor of Xie, my son
Duanwen is the true Emperor
Madame Huangfu -powerful grandmother, the master-mind
Her swaying head signified appreciation of the royal
wedding she had engineered. Poor Duanwen, he's marring a cross-eyed girl .
PART TWO
Lady Hui - a concubine and true love
She was clever, intelligent and quick-witted. A women
of ethereal beauty and celestial fragrance. The birds have flown away, I said,
somewhat puzzled. Her arrival has frightened off all the palace birds.
Emperor Marriage
Even the common citizens of the empire Xie knew the
political advantages to be had by my taking a girl from the empire of Peng as
Empress. I received word that Princess Wanda was a young woman of mediocre look
and eccentric behaviour, and that she was three years older. I spotted several
eunuchs and palace girls chattering, their faces adorned with silly grins.
I
forbid them to laugh, I said to Swallow. Slap the face of anyone who laughs. No
one is to laugh for three days.
Swallow did as I commanded, reporting more than
seventy laughing palace denizens were slapped. So many that his arm was sore.
Lady Hui is alone
The Empress and concubines formed alliances almost
immediately, all of them except Lady Hui. I afraid she is a bird that has
landed on the wrong perch, and sooner or later she will be knocked down into
the mud
Lady Hui is pregnant
You are 3 months pregnant. Why did not you tell me
~Your lowly servant is afraid. They have never
approved me, so how could they let me be the first to carry a dragon
child?
Lady Hui miscarriage plot
A shocking news emerged: Lady Hui pregnant all these
while had miscarriage in the night, and the dead foetus was a snowy white fox.
~They have been planning for a long time, she said.
Lady Hui escape
And it was early that same morning that Lady Hui, in
the disguise of a palace eunuch, slipped out to the outside world. I am going
to a Buddhist convent.
Did she really take nothing with her?
~Only a gilded
makeup box that held sheets of poems. I assume they were the poem your Majesty
wrote to her.
Madame Huangfu on deathbed
Madame Huangfu raised her hand slowly to caress my
forehead and cheeks. Then pulled back and began tugging at a sachet at her
waist.
I have worn this sachet these past 8 years, she said in smile. The time
has come to give it to you. cut it open and see what it holds.
The edict, in
the late emperor's own hand, read:
My eldest son Duanwen is to succeed me as ruler of the
Xie Empire.
Calamity befall the Xie Empire
Now the empire has undergone great changes, chaos
reigns among the populace, and it's too late to do anything about it.
I don't
have to be told that a sword aimed at my neck is inching, and All I can do is
sit around and sign. Tell me Swallow, just what kind of dog-shit Xie Emperor I
am?
Duanwen forehead spells "Xie Emperor"
An unanticipated indecent has occurred near the
marketplace. An old beggar known for roaming the cities streets in tattered
materialised in front of Duanwen's horse, reach out with a cane he used to ward
off dogs, and flicked the black cloth off Duanwen;s face. It happened so fast that
it caught everyone by surprise. People discovered 2 words has been tattooed on
his pale forehead, which was exposed in the sunlight:
Xie Emperor
Duanwen on the run
..search the cities for 2 days and 2 nights , without
finding the trace of Duanwen. Two guards entered the tunnel with torches. The
torn of the sleeve hung from a branch of a tree, they saw 2 lines of writing in
blood:
The day Duanwen returns to the capital will mark the extinction of
Duanbai
Tightrope walker and a Log Balancer
Swallow stood in the darkness, i could hear his sobs
like those of a weeping women. I knew he understood my fear and sadness.
If I could somehow leave the Xie Palace alive, Swallow
guess what I'd do out there
~ you would go looking for the Pinzhou circus and become
a tight roper walker.
Yes
~If Your majesty become a tightrope walker, your slave
would become a log balancer
I threw my arms around Swallow's shoulder and held him
tight. On that inauspiciously stormy night, a eunuch of low birth and I held
each other in our arms and cried in sorrowful anticipation of the end of 8
years as Emperor, even before it occurred.
Calamity befall the Xie Empire
My favorite general Ji Zhang was knocked from his
horse of Duanwen's Thunder Lance. My mother Madame Meng carry strips of white
silks. There is no need to explain the ritual of of presenting hanging silks to
women by the Emperor. Madame Meng personally watched as Ladies Lan and Yun
hanged themselves from the rafters.
Duanwen, you are the Xie Emperor
I met my half brother Duanwen once more under the
palace walls after the passage of eight years.
You are the Xie Emperor, I said
Duanwen laughed loudly and knowingly.
Can you see what is written on my forehead. So now you
are the last to see it. So who is the true Emperor of Xie Emperor
You are the Xie Emperor, I said
Emperor says good bye to Xie Empire
I stood on Swallow's soft shoulder, rose up like a
torn and tattered flag and slowly distancing myself from the place where I'd
lived for 20 years. Grass growing wild atop the palace wall covered my hands,
its sharp edges cutting into skin.
PART THREE
Emperor - the commoner
In that hot, muggy summer I began life as a commoner.
No one recognised me. Who could have imagined that a young merchant
wearing a conical bamboo hat was in fact the deposed Xie Emperor? When we
reached a hill five li north, I turned to look back at the Xie Palace - The
majestic imposing home of emperors was nothing but an empty yellow shell,
blurry as a mirage, calling forth illusory memories
Heading Swallow's parents hometown
Nameless lumps appear on my arms and legs itched
horribly. Everyday Swallow applied a liquefied solution of plantain seed to the
affected areas.
All parts of heavens plan, even the fleas are joining
forces to humiliate me.
Swallow said nothing.
You know, you can humiliate me if you wanted to, I
said as I grabbed his hand and fixed him with hard stare. So why don't you?
Still he said nothing
Highwayman took everything except the Analects
To me the trauma of the robbery was like adding frost
to snow, no more than that. But to Swallow, it was an attack of mortal
dimensions.
What am I supposed to give my parents as a sign of
filial respect? what am I suppose to use to buy a house and land? How am I
going to take care of you Your Majesty?
The Analects
I slowly retrieved the pages, knowing it could serve
no practical purpose in my life as commoner, but Heaven had made it know to me
that I must carry it with me whenever my exile took me
Father it's me, Swallow
Father, your Swallow has come home.
You are not my Swallow. My son is serving the Emperor in the Xie Palace.
Everyone said you would return home in fancy clothes, buy some land and built a
house, repair the family grave sites and erect a temple. How come someone in
rages and covered in dirt be my son Swallow?
Swallow womanish suicide attempt.
Who are you anyway? the old blacksmith said. My son
isn't your woman, is he? The way you two together disgusts me.
A fortune teller detect the air of an emperor
I walked up and down the street, looking for a
pawnshop, but a fortune teller informed that there isn't any in the country. I
showed him the panther-shape pendant I wore around my neck.
Where did you come across such a rare and precious
jade ornament, Sir?How much do you want for it sir?
Not much, enough to cover my travelling expenses.
Where are you going?
I am looking for a travelling circus from down south.
Have you seen anyone pass through here?
You are no circus performer. How is it that from what
i see, I detect the air of an emperor?
.
.
I know who you are, he said. You are the deposed Xie
Emperor.
Emperor continues journey on own to Pinzhou to reach his
dream to be a tightrope walker
I had no experience dealing with ordinary people. It
was going to be a problem, since I have abandoned my loyal swallow back at the
blacksmith shop
Calamity befall the Xie Empire
I dimly heard some out-of-towners that Duanwen
has beheaded Zhoayang the very day he ascended the throne - he cannot
share the crown with Zhoayang, as I predicted. The battle had raged in town for
eleven days, between the forces of the new Xie Emperor and those of the sons of
Duke Zhoayang. The bodies of thousands of dead soldiers were simply stacked up
in the streets.
Reunion with Lady Hui
I heard a door crack open behind me and was a lovely,
heavily made-up prostitute poke her head out and fix me with unblinking eyes.
Do you recognise me your Majesty. I am not a ghost.
Come she said let me serve you as i did in the Xie Palace. I don't want your
money.
It was Lady Hui the girl whose soul is linked to mine,
the one who had filled my dreams.
.
.
When i left the palace i cried until I had no more
tears to shed. Your majesty, now should do nothing to bring me sorrow anew.
It was this enmity that would spur me to depart
without saying good-bye, to quietly leave Lady Hui, now a prostitute, and the
folded airs of the Charming Phoenix
Emperor has nowhere to go; Pinzhou hit by plague
The bodies decomposed and began to stink, and the
towns flies and rats made playground out of the exposed bellies. Birds
began flocking into tow, the plague broke out.
Why didn't you leave when you had a chance?
The young man bit his lips and said.
My mother
wouldn't let me. She said, if we re all to die, we die as a family
This time Fate had stopped me from visiting Pinzhou
and now, after travelling all summer, I had no where to go.
Emperor found sign of travelling circus
I stumbled upon signs that a travelling circus had
been there. I walked up to a fruit peddler. He then pointed south and said
" they said they had to head south"
Do you like tightrope walkers?
Remember this: One day I will be the most famous
tightrope walker in the world.
Reunion with Swallow
My loyal slave Swallow appeared before me along with
the light of early dawn.
How did you find me
By the smell of your majesty's body. Does you Majesty
think I am some sort of dogs.
I took Swallow in my arms. His clothes were rags and
he was wet from head to toe. The master-slave relationship between us had
vanished onto thin air. Now we were like a pair of brothers in difficult
straits, our fates bound up together
Making Tightrope walker and a Log balancer into reality
Do you see those trees. Heaven has bestowed then on me
as the nest tightrope anchors. All you need to do is to find a length of rope
the thickness of my thumb, and tomorrow my practise will begin
.
.
I climbed the jujube tree and take my first step out
onto the swaying rope, stretched high up in the air. I promptly thudded to the
ground. A sleepy eyed little girl, Jade locket stood in the doorway watching my
earliest attempts. She clapped her hands and giggled. She turned and ran
inside,
"daddy what he is doing out there?"
Emperor is now a tightrope walker
I knew only up there could i confidently scorn all
living things below me once again; only then was I the master of my own
fate.
One drizzly morning, I walked effortlessly from one
end of the rope to the other. Finally i could fly like a bird.
Watch me
all of you, watch me I shouted at the people below. Who I am? I am not the Xie
Emperor. I am a tight rope walker. Emperor of the tightrope walker.
Jade Locket.
Jade locket turned 8 that year. She looked like a red
lotus flower about to open its petal as it flated on the surface of a pond.
Whenever I began to sway back and forth on my tight rope, I could hear Jade
Locket's thin shriek. She reminded me of Lady Hui when she first entered the
palace.
Jade locket seemed to draw to Swallow and began
pestering him to teach her log balancing, when no one is looking. The girl had
natural talent and light as feather.
Emperor bought Jade Locket.
All right, I ll get your fifty taels of silver, I said
as I walked over and picked up Jade Locket. I dried her tears and handed her to
Swallow.
Hold her I said to Swallow. Shes a member of our circus troupe. This
poor child now has a proper future.
Tightrope Emperor Travelling Circus.
We struck out ahead of schedule onto the path of
circus performances, the three of us - me, Swallow and the 8 years old Jade
Locket, carried a rope, two logs and headed for the country's heartland as the
beginning of what later to known far and wide as the Tightrope Emperor
Travelling Circus.
It was unexpectedly successful. The crowd kept
shouting its approval. When I performed the crane stance on the tight rope, the
roar is like thunder and pounding rains. By the spring of the
following year, our troupe had expanded to include 18 performers with 20
separate skills.
I was the Emperor of tightrope
I was a bird
Emperor looking for Lady Hui
I asked if he knew where Lady Hui has gone
she has gone to the capital , where she earns more
money than she ever could here. Everyone says she making a killing with her
body. Do you know, she mastered secrets skills known only in the palace in
order to serve the Emperor
That was my deepest wishes. My beautiful unlucky Lady
Hui had already transformed into a free flying white bird. We had reached
the same goal by different routes.
Back to the capital of Xie
We have seen that the the black panther banner of Xie
had been torn down, replaced by the blue double eagle flag of the Peng
empire.
Don't you know that the peng soldiers has occupied the
city?
do you know why peng soldiers let us into the city?
They probably saw us a travelling circus and want us
to put on a show for them
No, it is an invitation to death.
Last Word from Swallow
I recall Swallow pushed me into a haystack.
Don't be
afraid jade locket, I ll hide you in this big vat.
Those were the last worked I
heard from swallow.
Swallow and Jade locket and 15 members of troupe are dead
I was unable to pick swallow's death screams out of
others. I had finally lost the loyal slave that Heaven had sent down for
me. I recalled he had said
I will die for you your majesty..
Why
had the invitation to death excluded me and me alone?
Calamity befall the Xie Empire
The Peng soldier has torched the Xie Palace.The sea of
fire engulfed the place I was born and grew up.Xie empire is no longer exist
and the name of capital has changed by the Peng ruler to Changzhou.
The sixth Xie Emperor, Duanwen died in flames that
consumed the palace. He had sat on the throne for only seven months, the
shortest reign in the history of the line and the unluckiest. It was his aloof
arrogance, his imperiousness and unshakable self confidence threat consigned a
beautiful empire to history;s graveyard. Hundred members of the imperial family
and their offspring were slaughtered .
The sole survivor, the fifth emperor
Duanbai who had fallen to the degraded status of commoner,and who made his
living as an itinerant tightrope walker.
Prince Duanwe also died in the
conflagration of the Xie Palace.
Cricket jar
I wondered amid the ruins of the Xie Palace like an
orphaned spirit. I saw a boy squatting on the ground, digging in the ground for
something.
what have you found after this digging
~a cricket jar
what else
~birdcages.who are you, why aren't you digging
I am the one who hid those things i replied
softly
The burial
I buried Swallow and Locket Jade together in the
deepest and largest hole. By the time the last spadeful of wet earth covered
Swallow's ashen face and the balancing log in Jade Locke's hands, I collapsed
like a toppled Wall, totally spent. With Swallow dead, I was truly a man alone.
I lay down on Swallow and Jade Lockets grave and slept. The sky and I were so
close that I had one dream after another about birds. The sky I dreamt about
was transparent and boundless. All the birds I dreamt about flew into that sky.
I dream of a new world.
The Analects
In all the years had passed I don't interest in
studying the Analects. my feeling was so ling as it didn't end my life with
this rope around my neck. I d fine some time one day to finish reading the
Analects.
Lady Hui
The last time i saw lady hui was in the changzhou
secondhand market. Ratty hair, grimy face,muttering constantly - was a sign of
madness or not. She is selling some colourful finely trimmed slips of papers
with poems written to the passersby.
Authentic love poems written by the fifth
emperor of Xie. Odour seemed to float above the street on that afternoon, and i
knew that could have come from the peotry slips she was tring to sell, not from
the body of that ill-fated prostitute. That was the last day I spent on the
city The next day I joined a line of salt porters on my way out of the city of
sadness.
Bitter Bamboo Monastery on bitter bamboo mountain
By the time i made roundabout way to bitter bamboo
mountain, Joukong had already passed from this realm. Jeukong arrived here 8
years before me, he planted a rice paddy and a vegetable gardens and had spent
3 years slowly building the so called bitter bamboo monastery He left me an
empty mountain monastery and a weed-infested vegetable garden.
I found a wolf-hair writing brush with which i had
practise calligraphy as a boy in the palace. All this indicated that Jue kong
had waited for me those 8 years.
Bitter bamboo mountain gradually became a site of
bustling activity.
late arrivals built houses at the foot of the mountain, and
on clear morning they have clear view of bitter bamboo monastery midway up the
mountain. They can see strange monk standing on a rope strung between 2 pine
trees. either walking rapidly or striking a one-legged crane pose.
The Analects
Many nights I have been studying the Analects.
sometimes i feel that this sagely book holds all the wisdom of the world;
sometimes i don't get anything at all out of it.
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The (sad) End